I'm the Shiznit!

i just cant help it!  Yoda just teaches us things. What bedazzles me is that it's so universal, and easy to follow Yoda's quotes!

another helpful partial quote from Yoda:

". . . Mourn them do not. Miss them do not. Attachment leads to jealously." 

for short, we should not be sad for the "loss" of people in our lives.

so. . .thanks to that chick who dumped me 3 years  ago, im glad i let you go. . .or i would still be acting like a headless chicken running around.  silly me.

here is the right quote. . .my bad, sorry to myself. . .as if someone will read this. HA!

 

". . .Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering."

 

Ive been staying at home by myself for the past few days.  Is this a foreshadow of what life i will live?  i sure do hope so.  I have always wished for a bachelor pad for myself, and just doing my own thing.  haha. 

I went to an open house party the other day along with some friends.  i havent been to a good house party for a long time.  Other house parties that i went to were full of people who just cant even act human enough to respect other people.  This party that i went to recently had some pretty tame, and "fun" peeps. too bad my "syndromes" were acting up last night, thus, limiting my dance moves during the dance-off.  sucks.  it's all right.  u cant win all the time.  Furthermore, i had to keep an eye on three girls, making sure that no one maltreats them in any way.  multitasking it is(syntax error?  haha).  i was happy for gi, pia, and angelica for having smiles on their faces the other night.  We cant think of problems all the time, right?  as for me, i dont even need to question myself if im happy.  it seems pretty weird, im just happy without a reason.  Being content, and at peace with one's self is what makes me happy these days.  I wish i felt this waaaaay before.  now, if only i could have more money. heehee! 

Things i did today(for future reference):
-woke-up at 12:30
-washed the pile of dishes in the sink
-kept scattered things around the house
-was about to vacuum the floor, but i felt lazy
-instead, i just popped in my electric boogie dance music and practice my electric boogie dance. party hangover.
-took a bath, then attended mass
-had early dinner at Shisho ramen, had conversation with the staff. . .in Japanese! haha. heta, mata joozu desu!
-went to Mega video, and rented 4 movies.  I wasnt in the mood to go to the silver screen.
-watered plants in the garden, with 106.7 KROQ fm in the background. suh-weet. . .rock of the 90's weekend!
-watched one movie, took a shower again, and popped in another movie.
-then this.

REALIZE:
thanks to Star Wars episode 1, i was reminded that (hope i quote Yoda right)". . .not accepting things/not letting go(parang ganyan) leads to fear, fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate. . .blah, blah. . .anger, will take you to the dark side."  That's why im happy!  i let go of some things.  easy.  i can be a jedi master.  fanboy alert!  haha!

Currently, i am listening to the live broadcast of monster rx93.1 fm with UAAP basketball star Larry fonacier via the world wide web.  They were talking about larry's injury(ACL, Chronic ankle sprain), and how his injuries hold him back.  I could say the same, i do have chronic ankle sprains, and does it hold me back.  I regret not listening to this basketball coach back in San Francisco about not playing with an injured ankle(I played with a 3rd degree type ankle injury aka REALLY BAD). Every time i twist(rotation, internal/external supination) my foot, there's this hint of pain, and some painful sensation when you apply pressure to the area where the fibular fossa is.  And yes, it is true that once you have an injury, it will never be the same.  your quickness, jumping, balance, etc. will be affected.  Oh yeah, i think that my knee ligaments are loose too, they always make these popping sounds if i stand for a period of a time and then bend my knee.  And may i add. . .my piriformis syndrome is not doing much help.  I hope that for the rest of the year, i would be on my way to a fruitful rehabilitation.  I have been seeing results from my diet, after that, i will concentrate on bulking up and fixing these typical basketball player's common injuries(Ankle sprains, bummed knee, hamstring).  It's time i take some actions.  It's these injuries that got me out of shape, and eventually gain weight.  I wish myself luck.

voices in my head:

Dont blame me for what i am not responsible for.  Remember, that it is your actions, and your choices that led you to your situation right now.  I had nothing to do with that unfortunate event that happened to you, and you know that.  All i did was show you that not all of your ideas are necessary, still, you forced yourself into your own trap.  I cant change my ways for you, i have my own way of dealing with my issues and people, and so should you. Please spare some respect for me, even a wee bit will do.  I am living a good life right now, i have a job, good friends, and the like, so please dont spoil it by constantly flaming me for something you have done full knowingly. As patient as i am, i can only handle so much, please dont bring it to the point that i dont even want to see you.  Do i have to make a sign to remind you to stop?  In spite of all this, i am your friend, and i will listen to you.  So please, be a man and stop acting like a little kid.

what the hell? will you even read this?  crazy me.

 

ANYWAY:

Things are running smooth for me(almost everything).  Still, i will spend more time with myself, and it is helping me a lot.  When everything is going great for me, or even close to that, i will continue my "martyr for others" ways.  I will always remember to be at peace with myself, pray, and forget about other people's "negative vibe."  again, i have my own shit to deal with. 

Random bulbs in my head
I have always been know as a person who anybody can talk to, with just about anything. . .even if it is about what people dont like about me, or why they dont like me. im open to, and really appreciate suggestions, so i can further improve myself as a person. All i ask is that if people have any issues with me, i wish they would cut the chase, and hear my side if there are any misunderstandings. I dont have the time and energy for playing around. And i think other people dont have time for that, too. i have been saying this often, and ill say it again. I have enough shit in my life, and i dont need another one. if people cant put up, i wish that they would just shut up. I am already stressed with my personal life. I make sure i do my part in fixing a problem by being the bigger man and approaching first(even if i am not at fault). If people wont cooperate, or still think that Im so bad that they wont mind me, then i wont exert any more effort. I already did my part, and if people continue to play around like elementary kids, then it is their loss. Guess what? Life wont be better for them unless they change their ways. If life is treating them bad right now, i am truly sorry for them. As of late, inspite of all the stress i have, i have been blessed with good times with good people every now and then. And lastly, if there's beef between myself and someone, i wish that the beef just stays between myself and that person, and not include other people.

I believe in forgiveness, and i am also not afraid in asking for it, too.

Peace everyone!


July 4th:

While heading home from work on the 10 freeway, i saw an abundance of fireworks up in the sky. i popped in my Trance CD, and boy. . .did that just pump me up! There was a time that as if the fireworks were in sync with the music. A LIGHT SHOW!!! At home, the sight was more glamorous. Our house resides on a hill, overlooking the San Gabriel valley(???) alive with fireworks. see, it shows that happiness can be found everywhere, if you just look hard enough, avoiding the bad elements.

Memories
This is what Jorel wrote:
bakla
im so emotional nowadays. fuck! haha. sentiness is ruling me. huhuhu. just wanted to say hi. i dont really know the cause. maybe its a lot of things put together. a mix of shit and nice stuff. but i have so much to thank for. bands are really doing great. friends. fun whatever. everythings in the mix. its just that you know what i mean? im just really senti now. someone explain to me whats up haha! i miss a lot of people.
they probably know who they are.

ive been looking at old pics rin. watching old video clips and read my college yearbook. man its been a wild ride eversince. (i sound old) hahaha. im not. im really thankful for a lot of things. and at the same time in some aspects i yearn to have more. but thats just me being human. we all are.

and in light of my senti phase i will post a "MEME" (meme hahaha! i cant get over it!) i got from izzy. please dont expect real great answers if i dont know you that well


1. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you
2. I will then tell what song reminds me of you
3. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, I'll tell you what it would be
4. I will try to name a single word that best describes you
5. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you
6. I will tell you what color you remind me of
7. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you
8. Put this in your journal.

peace out yo. TANGINA I JUST RE READ MY ENTRY ANG BAKLA! ano baaa! hahaha! woo woo woo. huhuhu im so senti.

Here's my reply:
never have i been so carefree in my life! i try to enjoy the good things, and just forget about the bad things. I have enough shit in my life, and i dont want another one. I guess that goes the same way for you. you deserve to be happy. punta ka na dito!!!

Reverse MEME:
1. you never cease to amaze me. i learned a lot of different things from you. I like how you comapare life's problems with Aesop's fables, and kids' stories. astig lang.

2. "Dont stop me now" by queen. pakinggan mo na lang. Pwede na rin yung Ditas Faraon song, just because you composed it.

3. 11 pm. lagi kang nagsesenti every 11 pm during our High school days. Sino kaya ang iniisip? hmmm. . .hawk hawk hawk!!!

4. Mosh pit. We were asked to make a descriptive paragraph nung 3rd year. . ."Jorel's Mosh Pit" hahaha. trip.

5.Memorable moment-When i slept at your place for 2 days after our Class outing in Bulacan. McGyver baby!!! Isama mo na rin yung retreat and yung paghatid mo sa akin sa airport when i left.

6.Brown-kasi ito ang color ng chocolate. Chocolate na sinasabog sa katawan para dilaan. NYAHAHAHA!!! joke. Seriously, Black. kasi halos lahat ng shirts mo black, and you are a "dark" person. "you dont know death!"-The God of Death. heehee!

7. I've always wondered kung di ka naiinis sa mga childish antics ko. Energy higop!!! Cat quick reflexes! Ninja invincibility!!! I would like to add na rin. . .i've always wondered kung nag-aral ka nga nung high school. parang di ka nag-aaral eh. haha.
8. ewan.

ayan. I promised you id make you a palanca letter. after 6 years, i finally made one. i guess this sums it all up. pls email me.

And Jorel replied again:
tangina hindi ko na ma alala eksakto yung mga aesops fables na kwento! hahaha. ano na nga ba yung pinag uusapan natin non. laughtrip! hahaha. parang na alala ko sha na hindi!

yung ditas faraon! hahaha i should record that. wala lang. "OZZIE OZZIE" hahahaha!

AHAHAHAHA 11pm! gago!

sino ba yung teacher natin ng english nung 3rd year? hindi ko na ma alala! hindi naman si kix diba? 4th year yon eh. hahaha.

tangina ang labo non! literal nakatulog ka ng dalawang araw!

GAGO CHOCOLATE HAHAHA! san na nga ba natin ginamit yung "you dont know death!?" na alala ko yon! hahahahaah! GOD OF DEATH!!! hahahaah!

gago nakakatawa kaya yung childish antics mo. ghahahah hanggang ngayon ive developed some sort of version na ganon. hahaha. GAGO NAG AARAL AKO hahaha kasama kaya kita mag aral! hahaha.

1. what i really like about you is you really talked thru me and helped me get rid of my HS social climber phase. if you know what i mean. saka mature ka enough to deal with life itself. kung baga gaya nga ng sinabi mo dati. maaga pa lang nakasalamuha mo na ang buhay. its one thing wala ang maraming tao.

2. take a picture - filter: sobrang gusto mo yung kanta na yon. tapos hiniram ko yung album mo. kaya ikaw na alala ko nung naririg ko sha. haha.

3. 6am: kasi yun yung nag shoot tayo tapos si navalta at basil nasama sa shot natin tapos nag tiptoe out of the shot sila na parang cartoons. hahaha!

4. VAMPIRE! PANGIL! hahahahahahah! HARI NG CUBAO!!!

5. memorable moment ko yung sobrang na hassle tayo nung 4th year dahil yung physics project natin hindi natapos tapos CAT grad tapos awardee tayo tapos si ozzie nasa bahay nag a assemble ng kahit ano lang. HAHAHA. tapos ang gulo talaga tapos mas masaya tayo dahil na submit yung physics project kaysa nag grad ng CAT eh yung bowling every friday!

6. RED: dahil gusto ko yung red cap mo dati nung umuwi ka. fred durst hahah!

7. dahil matagal na kitang hindi nakakausap. i always wonder how you are. how youve been whats going on. kung kanino ka nag v vent kasi dati palaging ako at si agawin. ngayon i dont know whats been up. yon


Thank God for providing me with happy experiences that would surely be with me for my whole life.

i got this from Jorel, and i find it real interesting.  Check it. . .

1. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you
2. I will then tell what song reminds me of you
3. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, I'll tell you what it would be
4. I will try to name a single word that best describes you
5. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you
6. I will tell you what color you remind me of
7. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you
8. Put this in your journal.

 

like he also said, if i dont really know you, pls dont expect good answers.  sorry. 

Just came from my sister's in-laws's house, to celebrate July 4th. an early one that is. Enjoyed the food as usual, i think i ate too much. Today was pretty much boring. My body is so used to feeling tired that I vacuumed the whole house, watered the all of our plants, and did some detailing to my car. all of that made me kinda tired, but still not quite tired. Tomorrow will be the start of another work week. I heard that it will be hot this week. yay. NOT. Another paycheck is coming, but i cant touch it anyway. My school tuition will be my first priority.

realization:

I may not have the luxuries appointments and life convenience of some of my friends, but i have a lot of experience in the real world to compensate for it. i hope im not sounding like a sour grape. haha.

It sucks to know sometimes that you dont have enough money to go out on your days off. Not to mention i have weekends off that everyone at work is dying to have. I'll just turn to the "rediscovering home" method, which is mainly, looking for something to do at home rather than going out and spending money. Im not getting any younger, and i know i should enjoy my days of youth. What can i do? Every time that i know that im getting extra moolah, something always comes up that requires spending(e.g. car repairs, school tuition, family expenses. . .the list goes on). I need a second car, too. the Civic is racking up miles like no tomorrow. Again, i should be thankful for other people dont have jobs, and even money to spare for themselves. And again, i am humbled. suh-weet.